Day 65

     Today I shut off my brain, turned on my music and set out for a run. It went far better than I could have ever anticipated.

The sweat mark left by my butt on the front porch was also pretty impressive

     I haven't had an outdoor run like this in at least two years. It felt so good, despite the heat. Maybe it was because of the heat? Something about this morning just felt free. I didn't watch the clock, I didn't track the milage. I listened to music, smiled at the people I ran past and just enjoyed the fact that my body was capable of doing this. 

     At one point I ran by a young lady who was in a pair of running shorts and a sports bra. My immediate reaction was to try to suck in my stomach, which was dumb for a multitude of reasons. First of all, despite my 15+ miles a week this summer, I can't seem to whittle my middle down like in previous summers- I guess year 35 came with permanent bloat that can't be sucked in. Second, this woman was on her own mission and surely was not checking out my abs. Third- WTF Beth?!?!?!?!?!?! YOU RAN OVER 7 MILES AT AN 11:30 PACE IN CRAZY SUMMER HEAT!!!!!!! I am a rockstar!!!

     Focus on the positive- my legs and my stamina positively kicked ass today and I am so proud of myself! 

     

Day 64

     Now that I am on vacation, the house WILL be clean.

     I spent the past few days relaxing and basically living like a slug. I'm over it now and I've begun the cleaning, purging and organizing. First stop, the boys' room.

 Looks so clean from the doorway

Up close, you can't hide the stains

     It seems that no matter how much I clean, there is always something that I just have to deal with. I've used every spray possible, but the perfect, personalized PBK duvet is a casualty of a midnight bloody nose. Actually- lots of items in our home are casualties of the bloody nose phase. What made me think we could have nice things? 

     I have decided to work on focusing on the bigger picture.  I've been caught up in details recently that have me seeing the negative- an attitude I want to change. So what? There are a few stains, scratches and dents. The room is organized, the trains and cars are put away, and the random legos won't cause anyone (mom) to fall.  

     For now I'm going to enjoy this clean room because once the boys get home, the blood stain will be the least of my concerns!